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02 October 2018 @ 06:05 pm

I could swear I wrote one line of a super-rarepair fic many years ago. Last night I looked for it and couldn't find it; only the prompt turned up, in a document of many prompts. :/ It's possible I deleted the file, "knowing" I'd never flesh it out and/or letting fear of censure win because the source was, shall we say, problematic. If so, past!me has made present!me sad. Hoping I can find a My Documents backup of the right age to contain this file, if I'm not imagining its existence. The line probably isn't even that spectacular, but not being able to read it bothers me.

(It was John Dunbar/Wind In His Hair from Dances with Wolves. The line was written as part of an entry in Dunbar's diary. I know, I know.)


People who've written a lot of fic, or who've been writing for a long time, or who, heh, maybe don't invest as much of their self-worth in their fic, talk about going back through their AO3 catalog or whatnot and discovering stories they'd forgotten. This was an alien concept to me as someone who obsessively rereads most of what I write and who has posted a small enough fic collection to be able to list a good portion of it from memory.

I say "was" because while combing through my fic subfolder called "abandoned" last night, which goes back about 12 years, I discovered unfinished Slashfest/Kink Bingo/Porn Battle/SGA kink meme prompt fills and other snippets that I had either forgotten about until reintroduced or had no recollection of writing. I hardly ever browse that folder, so frequency of contact must be a factor. Maybe length or idea development, too, but there are old, sketchy drafts of just a few lines in the regular "fic" folder that I haven't forgotten because I see the file names all the time. Fascinating!


Having started learning to cook only in my twenties, having grown up in a recipe-following household, and not keeping the most well-stocked of pantries, I am happy whenever I throw together something spur-of-the-moment and it turns out tasty. Today it was a package of sausage and a bag of Brussels sprouts from the freezer, three overripe apples and a can of white beans. Autumn in a pot.


Hey, so that New Poets of Native Nations book I mentioned the other week? Heid Erdrich, the editor, is in town and giving a talk about it tomorrow! She's bringing two of the featured poets as well, Tacey Atsitty and Eric Gansworth. They weren't my favorites, but whatever, maybe their readings will change that. Excited to hear the presentations and to get the book signed.


I donated three boxes of books to the library today. Small repayment for all the materials they have lent this resident over the past 5 years. Also, closet space reclaimed. One of those boxes has been hanging around since high school. (!)

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insufferable know-it-all
29 September 2018 @ 10:15 am
From worst to best.

Hostiles (2017)Collapse )

Mohawk (2017)Collapse )

Wind River (2017)Collapse )

Thank you to Métis in Space for teaching me to more effectively identify and think through several tropes discussed above. Still so much more to learn.

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insufferable know-it-all
23 September 2018 @ 03:44 pm

More than advisable, this past week. I didn't expect to feel so competitive about our friend group's fall reading challenge—not even against other participants so much as there's a motivating factor in having a Bingo card I can fill out. Must! Get! Squares! Tweak and lengthen library queue for strategic sheep purposes! After I found myself rushing the end of a book on Wednesday, I dialed back.


I did not sign up for [community profile] trickortreatex in the end, but I did start a treat yesterday. Hoping to finish it. It's not long, I just don't have faith yet in my staying power since the return of the fic-writing urge is still so new.

Also have been puttering around with the Red Road and Longmire fics. The Longmire one (Mathias/OFC) now has something like four potential beginnings and no endings. I hit a bump in the Red Road draft (two noncon pairings) when I discovered that I don't think Jason Momoa's character would do what I want him to do. Gotta either get over it or change the plan.

…When there's time and mental space for writing. Sigh.


A handful of movies. Season two of The Red Road to get the character voices back in my head. Too bad that's all they managed before cancellation. If they'd moved faster, they might have done more interesting things with the Lenape plotlines about (1) the time it takes to sue a company that dumped toxic waste on the reservation when people need money ASAP to treat the life-threatening illnesses it caused and (2) internal dissent, plus competing external pressures, over whether to build a casino after the tribe won federal recognition.

I'd intended to see Starman (1984) in 70 mm at the Somerville Theatre a few days ago, our family having watched it often enough growing up that we continue to quote it at each other, but when I arrived, the ticket counter staffer said FedEx had neglected to ship some of the film reels and therefore they needed to reschedule to this Thursday. So that was a wasted pre-movie dinner out. Hoping to make the rain date, although I've got stuff planned after work on Tuesday, Wednesday and Friday and a social engagement on Saturday, which is already about three more evenings out than usual for this poor introvert.


Not actively at the moment. [community profile] festivids approaches, and my nominations list is in good shape. Doing beta work on a vid by [personal profile] deelaundry that should make House/Wilson fans happy.


I put this last but I'm thinking about it the most. I'd been looking forward to a quiet autumn-into-winter in which I could read, write and vid more consistently by taking some of the vacation days that I'd been discouraged by my supervisor from taking in the spring, couldn't take in June/July and didn't plan well enough to take in August. Now our team is short-handed due to poor management and I'm being asked to handle two significant projects due before the end of the year. Combined with one Oct. houseguest and one Nov. trip, suddenly everything feels squished and stressful. :/

Time again to confront the limitations of spare time—and to experiment with new actions based on changing priorities, i.e. see what happens if I put my hobbies before my job for once and request those days off anyway. Ditto the possibility of staying home for Thanksgiving to do what I want instead of flying to NY. Selfish, or self care? Rhetorical question.

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insufferable know-it-all
18 September 2018 @ 07:29 pm
An Unkindness of Ghosts by Rivers Solomon (2017)Collapse )

Trail of Lightning by Rebecca Roanhorse (2018)Collapse )

Guardian angels & other monsters by Daniel H. Wilson (2018)Collapse )

Jonny Appleseed by Joshua Whitehead (2018)Collapse )

New Poets of Native Nations, ed. Heid Erdrich (2018)Collapse )

A Closed and Common Orbit by Becky Chambers (2016)Collapse )

On the theme of enjoying sequels more than the originals, I'm almost finished with Spinning Silver by Naomi Novik, which catered more to my tastes than Uprooted (which I did like), and the third Murderbot book, Rogue Protocol, came in at the library.

To review in a separate post: Art and Fear by David Bayles & Ted Orland

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insufferable know-it-all
16 September 2018 @ 04:34 pm

How many of you are of an age and region to remember the BookIt! program, where kids get stickers for reading books and then trade them in for a Pizza Hut pizza? [personal profile] disgruntled_owl has organized a fall reading challenge for our local fan group that serves as BookIt! for grownups, and I am inordinately enthused about it. Need to do a books catch-up post.


Change of season—theoretically; summer hasn't let go yet—means replenishing fall work wardrobe and sprucing up the apartment. Clothes shopping is hard, but five hours' work yesterday yielded a pair of plaid pants, a tunic sweater with side grommets and a corduroy dress that I really like, and everything was on sale.

I also picked up a trio of fairy tale-inspired prints at a local art fair and hung them in the bedroom. picCollapse )

It's funny because it turns out the artist is the same one who made a paper-doll Edgar Allan Poe pattern and various cute horror figure prints that caught my eye when I lived in D.C. The styles differ so much, I didn't make the connection.


I got a haircut and I think I don't like it. :/


Trying to decide whether to participate in [community profile] trickortreatex or [community profile] yuletide_admin for the first time or to sit out official signups, look at people's requests to see if anything sparks an idea, and concentrate on my own WsIP otherwise. I'm thinking no on Trick or Treat and maybe on Yuletide. Just in case on the latter, I nominated the fandoms I'd want to request stories for and/or that I feel most capable of writing. Three is not much when you don't expect to know most of the sources other people nominate.

Either way, the "Original Works" prompts for [community profile] trickortreatex are a lot of fun to peruse. They're listed under "Other Media" here. (I copy-pasted into a Word doc and added line breaks to make them readable.) Some faves:

- Actor Cast As A Vampire Who Is Actually A Vampire
- Businessman Who's Obviously A Poorly-Disguised Tentacle Monster
- Demon Who Has Accidentally Locked Himself Out Of Hell And Just Wants To Go Home
- Ghost of a Dried Up River
- Ghost of Highly Intelligent Octopus that Escaped From Its Tank
- Giant Robot Who Just Wants to Know Love
- Haunted Yarn From An Evil Sheep
- A Reader's Digest Condensed Book that Slowly Devours the Reader's Soul
- Reanimated Egyptian Mummy With A BA In Film Studies From USC


Wait, I thought of a fifth thing. I booked a flight to see my longtime friend A. in Tucson, AZ in November. She moved there five years ago and it took this long to visit, whoops. Recommendations welcome if you know the area. So far: Sonoran Desert Museum, Saguaro National Park, drive up Mt. Lemmon, a Mexican restaurant her family likes.

Which reminds me: This week marks five years since I moved back to Boston! It seems simultaneously like less and more. 2013 was the summer [personal profile] jetpack_monkey made the Starships! remix. Kink Bingo was still running. This is the longest I have stayed at a single job or school. While there are annoyances and stressful periods, I don't at the moment have plans to look around. I miss my D.C. friends (and my NY friends before that) but am glad for my Boston ones.

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insufferable know-it-all
11 September 2018 @ 07:52 pm
The list of Zahn McClarnon-related sources to review is piling up. Let's start easy, with movies.

Spoilers for most of these. ♥ for the ones I'm glad to have seen.

Eight—well, technically seven—movies spanning 2007-2018Collapse )

No fics planned for any of these, although some should be useful for a vid idea I'm noodling around with.

While I'm not expecting to be a completist about his film catalogue, there are five or six more movies I'd like to check out, including Mekko whenever it becomes available.

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insufferable know-it-all
10 September 2018 @ 03:31 pm
Shana tova, Rosh Hashanah-celebrating friends. I am starting the new year by eating snacks and writing noncon. *facepalm*

It FINALLY cooled off -- "fun" fact, Boston almost beat its record for number of consecutive nights when the low didn't go below 60F -- so I am ready to acknowledge the approach of autumn, my favorite season. Will this be the year I finally make that Grim Reapers vid? Probably not, looking at the rest of the fannish to-do list.

Late October is shaping up to be fun!

- Employer-sponsored screening of The Mummy (1932)

- National Theatre Live reprise of Frankenstein - so now I can see Benedict Cumberbatch as the creature and Jonny Lee Miller as Victor to complement the last time it screened here

- "Frankenweek" programming at Harvard, including a day-long symposium and series of Film Archive screenings, four of which I haven't yet seen: The Curse of Frankenstein, Frankenstein Must Be Destroyed, Abbot & Costello Meet Frankenstein, Frankenstein Meets the Wolf Man

- Pumpkins? This year's theme at the Providence zoo jack-o-lanterns show involves magic, myths and superheroes. Granted, nothing will beat the year they did postage stamps.

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First in an anticipated series of fics featuring Zahn McClarnon characters! I'm braced for crickets on this one but hoping to be surprised. Here's a quick backgrounder for the story if you haven't seen the show.

Title: Five Endings for Constance Heck (AO3)
Fandom: Fargo (TV)
Characters: Hanzee Dent, Constance Heck, Narrator | Barton Brixby
Length: 3,300 words
Rating: M
Notes: Rape/noncon, murder/strangulation, brief ableist language, spoilers for eps 2x8-2x9
Thanks: to theletterelle for beta

Constance had been one of the quiet ones before the phone call.Collapse )

(I think #2 is closest to what "really" happened, while #1 is what episode 8 implied would happen. #4 is my favorite.)

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insufferable know-it-all
To recap: I've been watching stuff with Zahn McClarnon in it, and I've got four fics in progress—one now complete—featuring different characters played by him.

Since the finished one is about Hanzee Dent from the second season of the Fargo TV show, we should talk about the second season of the Fargo TV show!


CliffsNotes version: What you need to know if you'd like background for the ficCollapse )

And that is it! The story is in beta, and I'm making a few other tweaks, but it should be in postable shape soon. Then on to finishing one of the other three, I hope.

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insufferable know-it-all
03 September 2018 @ 11:13 am
Friends, I took that vacation.

Sort of: I booked two nights at a hotel a few towns over at a last-minute discount rate, purposefully did not connect my laptop to the wifi, and determined to work on fic all weekend. My biggest problem is giving in to distractions, and my biggest distraction is the internet, so locking myself in a mostly empty room seemed like it would help. It's silly because I know I could just turn off the wifi in my apartment, but for some reason it was easier to break the habit in a hotel by not forming the habit in the first place. The change of scenery and furniture also helped.

And it worked! My 750-word Hanzee/Constance story is now 3,200 words and compleeeeete, hooray. First fic I've finished in, what was it, two years and a bit? And it only took a week and a half after watching the show. Feels like longer ago.

Perks of the hotel plan: free breakfast and parking, air conditioning, kitchenette for storing and preparing food from home and/or takeout, heated swimming pool for breaks. Downsides: $, yelling children, loud doors at night, incorrect advertising of device hookup capabilities with the TV, ceilings that spring leaks at 11 p.m. But they're comping me for the second night on account of said leak, so the $ isn't bad at all. (I had to ask them if they were going to do anything to make up for the late-night room change, though. If I hadn't, the bill wouldn't have been adjusted. Yay assertiveness. Less yay customer service.)

The other silly thing is I ended up leaving my apartment for the two cool days in the middle of several weeks of oppressive heat and humidity. Now that I'm about to head back, it's swampy again. Sigh. I'd like to try this method again to take a break from uncomfortable weather, as well as by actually taking days off work, since I'm pushing the maximum accrual for PTO. A nice problem to have, for sure, but there always seems to be stuff I want to get done at the office when the writing or vidding bug strikes, and my supervisor has unpredictable reactions to time-off requests.

ETA: I did avoid the worst of Sept. 1, a.k.a. the day half of Boston plays musical chairs with dorms and apartments. Spotted 13 moving vans/trucks on the way out of town and 5 on the way back today.

Now I'll need to do that Fargo season two reaction post & fic primer. Not sure how many people will want to read it, between the warnings and the small size of the fandom. But I am happy.

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